“I LIKE THIS”

VERY LAST TIME

There are a lot of things going through my head right now…. So I dedicated the song, “Very Last Time” by Jennifer Chung to myself….
To view the video, click here: “VERY LAST TIME”

What? What am I supposed to do with you?
Then again you’re really not the issue
It’s a battle within myself,
And I don’t need your help.

Why? Why am I getting so confused?
The feelings gone, I don’t even like you.
Then tell me why is it that sometimes
I can’t look you in the eyes.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving, and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

How? How did I even get here?
This is the very place that I feared.
In a position where I wonder if you cared for me at all.

Who? Who was it that made me believe,
That you and I were supposed to be.
Well it doesn’t matter, ’cause in the end.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving, and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

When I, I think
Of all the these questions — with no answers my heart begins to sink.

Do you realize?
Well, it doesn’t matter ’cause I’m living, breathing, & feeling so alive.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
And you know the reason why.

OUR 5TH ANNIVERSARY

It’s Saturday and it’s our rest day.. Mamaya Vic and I planned to go to Ecopark in Fairview, Quezon City.. We were not able to spend our 5th Anniversary last March 19 because we were both busy with work. So, we are looking forward to spend time together..

Vic and I don’t go out that much. Usually nasa boarding house lang kami. Since we both love music, we spend time din in recording songs at binuburn namin sa cds o kaya sinisave namin para remembrance.. Unfortunately, ilang beses na na-reformat ang pc niya so we have to start recording again.. I’ve already listed some of the songs na kakantahin ko.. super excited ako ’cause I will be posting some of them sa YouTube and also sa Friendster profile ko.. I just hope na okay ang recording no..

I am just happy na we reached our 5th Anniversary..

Til here muna.. Next time ulit!

“What a Day”

It’s Karen’s day off today so we decided to see each other at MOA (Mall of Asia) before 12 noon. Dumating ako dun mga around 12 kasi traffic and may inaasikaso pa akong mga papers kaya late ako sa usapan namin. She texted me to meet her sa Red Ribbon. Eventually nagkita naman kami and I realized na a lot of things changed since we last saw each other. Mas gumanda siya ngayon and mas kikay.. bago ang haircut tas nakashades and make up ang lola nyo. hehhe. We had a great time together. We visited Duolos somewhere in Manila (sa pier 13) which is one of the oldest ship in the world, built in 1914, just two years younger than the erstwhile Titanic Ship. The ship is also regarded as the only ship in the world with the largest floating bookshop totaling over one million titles from over 50 authors….The crew was great! They seem to be friendly and approachable pero we never had a chance to interview or talk to them kasi they were all busy arranging the books. What I like most about the ship is that meron din silang mga collection ng Hillsong albums which I am planning to buy this Saturday. The price is based on units, 100 units = 100 pesos. Medyo may kamahalan nga ang mga books and cds dun pero at least nakacontribute ka sa charity di ba?! It’s a great experience talaga.

Karen and I talked about a lot of things and we talked about ‘yong dalawang team mates ko before who resigned to focus on their career sa pag-aartista. I am super happy and proud of them. My team mate named Loraine Marie De Guzman joined Bb. Pilipinas 2009 and naging “Girlfriend of the Month” din siya sa FHM. Her boyfriend naman and my team mate din named Ejen Vicente has three commercials (as far as I know). Sa Nestea or Nestle, Voice and Coke. If you want to view the clips, just click this:

Bb. Pilipinas-Raine De Guzman

Bb. Pilipinas

Bb.Pilipinas2

Voice-Ejen

Note: Raine is candidate # 18 tas si Ejen naman is the guy at left side ng bida. Nagheheadset sya with a sling bag..

Me and Karen and the rest of the team are so proud na na-meet namin sila. And I hope that they will be successful in the future. Sana naman sumali sila sa PBB or PDA because they both know how to sing, they’re good looking din and they have the right attitude to make it big in the biz industry.

KOLLABORATION 9

Oh my God! I am crazy ’bout Kina Grannis’. She and her friend, David Choi made their own cover of the song, “Forever” by Chris Brown and I love it so much! I think that it is better than the original version. I found David Choi’s profile on Facebook and I am so happy that he accepted my friend invitation. I am such a big fan of him and Kina and the rest of the Kollaboration 9 group.

If you want to listen to the song, just go to my profile. For the video, you can find it at the bottom of the page. Enjoy!

“THE PAST”

I admit that I had made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life that I regret up to now. Mistakes that I do not want to commit again. Mistakes that I want to forget. I used to think that this is just part of life and I should not dwell on it. But there are times in my life that I can’t seem to bury the past and move on. These were the times that I am confused, sad and badly hurt.

When I was in high school,  I used to think that everything went the way I expected– I got very good grades, got very nice friends, had a singing career, fame, supportive family and I did start a political career too. (SK) Everything was so perfect not until I had a relationship with someone not from our school.

I can say that my relationship with him was memorable and I learned a lot from him. This was my first relationship and I am clueless as to how to handle it. We had a lot of things in common yet these are also the things that cause us to fight constantly. If there is one thing that I regret the most, it is giving my heart to this man.  I went through hell just to give him what he wants, risking my reputation and everything that I had. I lost some great friends and made a very bad impression to my family, the school, relatives and some people that I knew.

After what happened, I moved to Cebu to work and forget him and the bad memories we had in Bislig and Iligan City. It was hard but I managed to do it.

Everything went along just fine not until a friend contacted me and asked help. I can say that I am generous most esp. when it comes to people I knew. If someone in need comes to me, I try to help them, expecting that they would treat me and other people the way that I treated them. (give back kumbaga)

To cut the story short, I was deceived. I was criticized, disrespected, talked behind my back, accused and blamed. I think I am really unfortunate when it comes to trusting people huh?! We had a little confrontation and it did not end quite well. She moved out and we never talked. I regret the fact that I am TOO honest enough to tell to her face how she treated me badly and how I am hurt and saddened that our friendship ended that way. I regret the part when I told her things that I shouldn’t have- things that a person can say when she/he is furious and extremely mad. I was out of control… And because of this, I lost a friend.. a dear friend and I hated myself for it. I couldn’t get over it!

Whenever I open up these experiences, my friends always tell me that no one is to blame. I am also a victim and I just did what I had to do. To them, there is nothing wrong with trusting someone. But there should be a limitation. It does not mean that you are goin’ to give everything just because you trust a person. Second, it is okay to be straightforward but don’t let emotions get into you because in the end you might say some things that you should not have.

Lastly, I wrote this blog not to remind these people of the things that happened to us. I wrote this to share this unfortunate experience and at the same time to tell people how important it is to know a person before trusting them. In my case, I shouldn’t have trusted them. I should have tried to get to know them first before giving my heart and offered them my friendship and love.

Now I learned a lesson..

I guess that it is time for me to move on and forget all the crap that happened to me before I went here in Manila. I forgive them and I hope that in return, they will forgive me too for hurting their feelings. Somehow I am also thankful to these people. They are the reason why I learned to love and respect myself and be the woman that I am now…. I am very happy that I found a man who loved me for who I am and for staying with me for 5 years. I am also happy that I found some great friends here.

In relation to this blog, I’ve made a personalized video of the song “OVER YOU” by Daughtery. This is the video that I have been talking about from my previous post and I am glad that I am done editing it. So, to all people out there who experienced the same way that I did, this song is a tribute to all of you…. Let’s be strong and let us not dwell on the past..

OVER YOU by Daughtery

T.G.I.F (Thank God It’s Friday)

It’s Friday and it is the last day of work. Finally I can relax, get some sleep, watch tv, surf the net and make my favorite dessert… yummy! I am also excited to see Karen next week. She texted me that she has a lot of things to tell me regarding work and what she’s been up to lately. I am also planning to see some high school friends this weekend..

It is so sad that Vic can’t spend the weekend with me. His manager from the US, Mr. Roman Bond, is here and he needs to focus on work, work and work. Eto work niya o..

Just kidding.. Yah he is super busy. In fact, he received an award for his performance and we are so proud of him.

I have a lot of plans this Saturday. I am planning to watch “Slumdog Millionaire” again with my housemates. Though there are scenes in the movie that I am disgusted with, I still think that the movie as a whole is kinda okay. EWwww I can still remember the part where Jamal was covered with shit. hehehe.. Aside from watching this movie, I am also planning to finish the video that I started making just this morning. I want to post a lot of videos on YouTube..

Hmm lastly, I am craving for chocolates and my favorite “Chocolate Caramel” in Red Ribbon…. So, alis muna ako ha? Bibili muna ako.. til next time ulit!

OPRAH

I can say that I am a really big fan of Oprah Winfrey, Ellen Degeneres and Tyra Banks. And while I was searching for videos of their previous shows, I found some hilarious videos of Oprah being spoofed on MadTV. This got my attention and I couldn’t help but laugh and at the same time amazed that Debra Wilson did a great job of sounding, acting and looking like Oprah Winfrey.

Here are the videos:

Oprah1

Oprah2

Oprah3

Enjoy!

KALOKOHAN

Hay naku! Ang daming kalokohan talaga itong si Marl Charmel Acain. Mahulaan niyo kaya kung anong ginawa niya? Gusto niyo ba ng clue? Ok ‘eto. This has to do with my pet named “Bugs”.. May idea na ba kayo? Well, si Bugs lang naman ang pinaka-cute na rabbit na pinakaingat ingatan ko. Flawless itong rabbit na to noh? Tingnan nyo pic nya below:

Flawless ano? hehehe. And sosyal pa itong bunny na to ha kasi hindi to kumakain ng carrots at kangkong.. Ang kinakain nito ay “lechon manok”, “sisig” o kaya’y tocino or ham or hotdog (pang-breakfast). And take note, WITH RICE pa ha.. hehehe..

I think by this time may konting idea na kayo kung ano ginawa ni Charmel. Sige na nga pakita ko na nga sa inyo..

Naku hindi pagkain ang nasa pan ha kundi si “BUGS”.. ang pinakaiingat-ingatan kong si Bugs.. Sabi ni Charmel ang cute daw ni bugs sa pan eh. Sabi ko naman “kakaawa kaya”.. Siguro when he took this picture, may idea na si Bugs kung ano ang ending ng pagstay niya dito sa apartment namin.. Eh ang lola niyo naramdaman naman kung ano ang nafefeel ng alaga niya kaya naman binabantayan ko na from Charmel. Pero guess what kung ano ang nangyari kay “Bugs”.. Dumating si……..

Cute ba itong isa kong alaga? Nakabihis pa tas ang amo pa ng mukha no?.. Well, dyan kayo nagkakamali kasi hindi ‘to maamo. Ya cute nga and nakakaawang tingnan pero ito ay certified killer.. Murderer! Now guess what kung ano ginawa ni Toytoy last December 25, 2008 and January 1, 2009? Bigyan ko nga kayo ng clue:

Ito si Bunny with Hood. SOsyal to kasi nagmana to sa ‘kin.. Joke! Pero seriously, in personal ang cute talaga itong alaga kong ito.. Nahulaan niyo na ba?

CORRECT SISTAH! Pinatay ni Toytoy si Bunny last January 1, 2009. New year na new year.. and hindi lang si Bunny ah kundi pati na rin si “Bugs”.. So ito iyong last pic na nakuha ko sa kanilang dalawa..

kakaawa nga eh.. Kaya I missed Bugs and Bunny.. And since guilty si Toytoy, pinarusahan ko siya nang bonggang bongga.. Eto parusa niya:

YUP! PINALAYAS ko siya.. hehehe.. Pinalayas ko na pero nagpapacute pa rin sa pic na ‘to… hahay..:D

Sa ngayon di ko na alam kung sa’n na si Toytoy.. Baka may umampon na sa kanya. Well, kung sino man umampon sa iyo, mag ingat sila.. Pero I still miss you Toy..:( And sa ngayon, ipinagbigay alam ko na sa police kung sino kaya ang bad-influence kay ToyToy.. And itong tatlo ang suspects…

Picture No. 1 = SHARON (Ganda ni Sha ano and di ako makapaniwalang BI siya kay ToyToy. Tingnan niyo naman ang pic nila.. Super sweet and super pose pa nga silang dalawa. Tinuruan lang siguro ni Sha si Toytoy na maging “Fashionista”. )

Picture No. 2 = NICSON (Maamo ang mukha ni Nics ano? and mukhang mabait pa.. Pero BI nga ba siya? Tingnan niyo naman ang pic nila ni Toytoy.. Feel na feel niya na anak niya si ToyToy.. hehehe.)

Picture No. 3 = CHARMEL (Hmmm.. Sa picture pa lang mukhang BI na ah.. Kawawa naman si ToyToy sa pic nila kasi ginawa siyang baboy na ready to cook na.. hehehe Ito kaya ang nag udyok kay ToyToy na maghiganti sa pamamagitan ng pagpatay sa dalawang bunnies?”)

Haay… sa wakas natanggap ko na rin ang result ng investigation.. And WHOAHHHHHH… Ang BI kay ToyToy ay walang iba kundi si..

Sinasabi ko na nga ba eh.. hehehe.. Charmel, arestado ka!! hehehehe..

-the end-

Note:

Wala kasi akong magawa kaya nagawa ko tong blog na ‘to.. hehehe.. peace **

MY BEST FRIEND

Vic has been a very loving and caring partner since we started this relationship. He is so patient, understanding, and most of all, he listens to me, supports me in everything I do and respects me.  This is the reason why I loved him so much and I admire everything about him.

Honestly, I have not met a guy as simple and nice as Vic. Hindi siya materialistic na tao, hindi vain, hindi siya pretentious, hindi siya manggagamit and one quality that I like about him is that he doesn’t like to talk about other people behind their backs. Not only that, mapagkakatiwalaan din siya when it comes to secrets. (dami ko kayang secrets) hehehe

I considered him as my best friend not only because of the good qualities that he possessed but also of the fact that he has always been there for me when I needed him.

That is why on our 5th year anniversary this coming March 19, I am planning to make a video of him and post it on YouTube para naman he’ll know na he is super duper special to me. Simple lang syang tao and I know that he’ll appreciate it.

So right now I am trying to do a research on tutorials para mag edit ng videos and mag upload na good ang quality.. So guys, til next time ulit! Nag eeffort ang lola nyo na magpa impress kai lolo.. hehehe.. chao!