The Price

I was looking for the future but I was wrong. I went back to school in order to take the course that I like. I am looking forward to teach children someday and completely deviate myself from the call center industry. Sad to say, I end up  frustrated and unsure if the choice that I made was right.

What is the price of a good education nowadays? What is the price of a clear conscience? It has been now overshadowed by money and corruption. Money makes the world go round, they say. It is true that money does that. It is a commodity that pays for the tools use to give expected results. “Results” would be equal to good education, good service and justice. 

I am enrolled in XXXXX University for the past few months. I was enrolled under a BS Education course. I am also a part-time employee of a call center and I also have freelance job at home. Amidst all these, I was still able to manage my time in school and at work. I have a goal to exceed my previous expectations. I am not satisfied by a meager passing score in a subject. I went to school for a reason: to graduate with flying colors and to be acknowledged for my efforts.

The grading system is created as a measurement of someone’s performance. Without it, people can’t determine what things they are still going to work on and what things they are going to keep on doing. Lately, I was a victim of unjust evaluation. This is just like politicians getting people’s tax money for their own means.

I paid for a education. I keep track of my performance. I make sure that I perform well. Getting a grade that is not what I expected is discouraging.  The first thing I want to point out is the unclear guidelines for the grading system. Why would people with low scores and with a lot of absences get a grade of 1.25 and I get only 1.5 when I scored perfect in the exam and I don’t have any absences despite of the busy schedule that I have? You ask yourself if this  happens to you. If you people ask for a good government with no corruption, it would be better to start in yourself.  If you people wish for a flourishing economy with no financial problems, it would be better to start working hard and true than be lazy and expect something that will be impossible to achieve.

One should get what he works for. If not, then it would be better for that “person” who evaluating you to know your opportunities and strengths. What is the price of being a good person or citizen? What is your price to be true to what is RIGHT?

Share your thoughts…..

ENTREPRENEUR

Lately, I’ve been busy with my online business in eBay. And I can say that somehow I am enjoying it. I like making follow-ups sa mga orders, I like listing the items, give discounts to buyers, ship items through JRS or LBC, etc. For me, the best part of having a small business and being an entrepreneur is that you will gain experience on how to manage your business, manage your time despite the busy sched and obligations at work, school, loved ones at nakakasave ka pa kahit konti sa bank account mo..
It’s just the beginning and ang dami ko pang gustong i-explore. Ang dami ko pang gustong gawin like owning a franchise someday, having employees to manage, etc.

Hindi naman malaki ang profit ko sa Buy & Sell. I believe naman na kahit konti lang ang profit, what’s important is that maraming satisfied customers ang tumatangkilik sa products mo. And because of that, magiging successful ang business. :> I would never sacrifice quality for quantity. Kung may flaw man ang isang item, much better na sabihin nalang sa interested buyer rather than not telling it to him/her.. You’ll lose a customer pag ganun!

Anyways, ngayon aside from damit and cellphones, I am selling very cool bags.

So, check niyo nalang ang profile ko for photos sa items na binebenta ko..
Chao!

Wink :>

I DONT LIKE YOU

Being friendly is different from flirting..  I really don’t understand why some people would misinterpret your actions. Kahit friends lang ang turing mo,iba na ang iniisip nila.

My life now is focused on my family, my new career and siyempre kay Vic. Dili ni siya pa-char char lang! It is the truth. So, to the “people sa past ko”, get over it! Wala ko nabuang para i-balik kung unsa man tong nasa past nako. Siguro, if I stayed with that person, gulo lang jud ang abuton nako and kalisod pod sa life. So, please lang jud…. I’m over him and I am happy with my current relationship! Don’t you dare tell me that I am flirting with ******* because I am NOT. Siyempre kahit paano, may pinagsamahan kami. In a relationship naman, hindi lang love ang involved dun. Fiendship is also involved. So kahit WALA ka ng feelings for that person, there is still the friendship na you once shared with the person. I now have a new life with Vic as my partner…. This is the life that I wanted… Why in the world would I leave a very good man and settle for someone who hurt me in the past?? Tell me…  

5 years na po ang nakalipas, I think it is time na mag-move on na rin keo.. What ******* and I have is just pure friendship. No more. No less…. 

PAST IS PAST!…. PERIOD!

BACK TO SCHOOL

June 8, 2009 - start of classes

I can’t wait! I am excited. I am glad na lahat ng subjects ko ay credited. I don’t have to take up Math, Physics and Chem again. So I am an irregular student.

Siguro marami nagtatanong why I am goin’ back to school… Simple! I just want to have a new career and this time, hindi na sa call center. I’d been in the call center industry for 3 years. I started working after graduating from college in MSU-IIT. People Support-DAVAO was the first company that I’d been with. Then I was relocated to People Support-CEBU. Okay na sana sa Cebu. Masaya kasi I have a lot of high school friends working and studying there. Pero siyempre, it is lonely kasi Vic is in Makati and my family is in Mindanao. When Vic asked me to relocate again, siyempre pumayag ako. And I worked sa IBM Daksh. I love the environment, the people, everything!

Being in the call center industry is amazing. I developed a lot of skills- most especially of the way I speak. Typing speed ko nag-increase din from 63 Words per minute to 83 WPM, etc. Na-experience ko na rin ang maging “Top Agent” twice sa IBM. Somehow naging proud naman ako sa mga achievements ko sa call center.. Siguro nasanay na ako masyado sa industry na ‘to kaya I want to try other industries para naman versatile ako.. Kahit saan ako ilagay, pwede ako..
 

This is the reason why I wanted to pursue my education. Secret na kung ano ang course… I am planning to go abroad someday.

Vic has been so supportive… Pati na rin family ko.  And pag-nag-graduate ako next year, I’ll make sure na magiging proud sila sa ‘kin…
 

Promise!!

“BISAYA na BLOG”

***Kapoy english ug tagalog so magbisaya napod ko! pero sagulan ra nako ug english gamay para sayon sa akoa.. hehehe..

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I really don’t know why I feel so much hatred sa akong life… Is it because I had a very traumatic past? Is it because of the way na gipadako mi sa parents namo na constant na sige away?! Is it just because of the people around me?! Or is there a problem with me?! hmmmm.. I wonder why….

My friends say that I am so lucky. Wa man mi galisod kadtong nag.school pako. if naglisod man, at least wa man pod nagkulang ug hatag ang akong parents sa things na kailangan nako. Ana pod sila na I am gifted kay daghan kog talents/ nahibal-an and dali rapod ko makabalo sa things na gusto nako tun.an pareha anang in relation to computers, music, etc. Some say pod na suwerte ko maski gabinuang ko, dili pod always negative ang effect sa akoa..mmm.. murag true sad.. I remember the time nag-absent ko sa work for three days consecutive without notice pero kadtong nibalik ko nakadaog pakog price for my attendance, nakakuha pako ug compliment call which was escalated daun sa akong supervisor, I got a perfect score sa local na QA assessment and a perfect score pod sa QA score in Miami, FL. Nahitabo tanan in just one day.. There are a lot of cases sa akong life na makaingon pod ko suwerte ko (sa pangita ug work, salary, etc) pero why man jud na there are times na mafeel nako na murag something is missing jud… haay…

Naa pod ko uban mga friends nga thankful ko kay they stayed with me maski unsa ko kabuang buang, lucky pod ko kay naa pod koy uyab who stayed with me for 5 years and NEVER as in NEVERRRRRRRR jud siya nibiya nako maski pila nako ka times ni-ingon na biyaan ko para dili siya madamay sa akoa pagkatala tala. Patient kaayo siya sa akoa and he believes na someday marealize daw nako how blessed I am to have people na naglove and nagdawat sa akoa.. and most of all, blessed kay gihatagan kog maayong kinabuhi ni Lord..

Pero ambot uy.. I dont know why until now, iba jud akong nafeel.. I have all the things I need to face this world pero somehow may kulang.. This emptiness inside me stays with me wherever I go and no matter how hard I try na mawala ni, ambot ani uy kay makalimtan nako usahay pero mubalik raman japon..

Am I crazy? huh? (tsk…tsk…) Sometimes I blame my parents for what’s happening to me.. Kadtong bata pa mi and as early as 5 yrs old, there was never a day na dili sila mag-away.., there was never a day na dili sila magshagit… they’re constantly bickering over petty things… kwarta, negosyo, kwarta, negosyo, mga plano, decisions.. HALOS tanan nalang! Naabot pa sa point na hapit sila magpinusilay….and naabot pa sa point na magbulag na sila.. Now I believe na kung unsa imo ipakita sa imong anak at an early age can really affect jud sa bata psychologically…

Look at me now…. hahay.. sometimes I can’t help myself jud na masuko over some stupid things na pwede raman unta storyahan ug tarong… Sensitive kaayo ko when it comes sa reaction sa mga people.. sa actions sa mga pips… and oftentimes, mao ni ang reason why magpalayo ko and not mingle jud sa uban tawo unless close friends nako.. It takes a long time pod to earn my trust… 5 years na gani mi ni Vic but duha duha pako salig sa iyaha. But deep in my heart I know na he is a good man.. a very good man….

I pray na unta one of these days, God will enlighten me kung unsa jud iyang plan for me.. All these years, akong plano nalang akong gituman and wala jud ko nagseek sa guidance niya.. But now, I want to change… for the better… I know it is hard and it will take a long time pero at least kahit gradual lang, I know na eventually I’ll become the person God wants me to be. And siguro by that time, makit.an ra nako unsa jud tong missing sa akoa life. If makit-an nako ang missing piece, then that is when na mahibalo ko na I am TRULY HAPPY… (kanang tinud.anay na kalipay.. not based on what I achieved or what I have)…..

AS of now, I am contented with my life but I am still looking for that “?????” na maingon jud nako sa akong self na “Wala na koy kalagot sa kalibutan”… Free nako sa hatred and wala na ang emptiness na nafeel nako… Kanus-a paka mahitabo na no? Pero I think na if you are going to surrender everything to Him, you’ll feel “peace” sa imong paghuna huna…

So, I will leave everything to Him…

“I LIKE THIS”

VERY LAST TIME

There are a lot of things going through my head right now…. So I dedicated the song, “Very Last Time” by Jennifer Chung to myself….
To view the video, click here: “VERY LAST TIME”

What? What am I supposed to do with you?
Then again you’re really not the issue
It’s a battle within myself,
And I don’t need your help.

Why? Why am I getting so confused?
The feelings gone, I don’t even like you.
Then tell me why is it that sometimes
I can’t look you in the eyes.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving, and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

How? How did I even get here?
This is the very place that I feared.
In a position where I wonder if you cared for me at all.

Who? Who was it that made me believe,
That you and I were supposed to be.
Well it doesn’t matter, ’cause in the end.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving, and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

When I, I think
Of all the these questions — with no answers my heart begins to sink.

Do you realize?
Well, it doesn’t matter ’cause I’m living, breathing, & feeling so alive.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren’t ready
But I’m holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
‘Cause I’m leaving and you’ve hurt me for the very last time.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
And you know the reason why.

OUR 5TH ANNIVERSARY

It’s Saturday and it’s our rest day.. Mamaya Vic and I planned to go to Ecopark in Fairview, Quezon City.. We were not able to spend our 5th Anniversary last March 19 because we were both busy with work. So, we are looking forward to spend time together..

Vic and I don’t go out that much. Usually nasa boarding house lang kami. Since we both love music, we spend time din in recording songs at binuburn namin sa cds o kaya sinisave namin para remembrance.. Unfortunately, ilang beses na na-reformat ang pc niya so we have to start recording again.. I’ve already listed some of the songs na kakantahin ko.. super excited ako ’cause I will be posting some of them sa YouTube and also sa Friendster profile ko.. I just hope na okay ang recording no..

I am just happy na we reached our 5th Anniversary..

Til here muna.. Next time ulit!

“What a Day”

It’s Karen’s day off today so we decided to see each other at MOA (Mall of Asia) before 12 noon. Dumating ako dun mga around 12 kasi traffic and may inaasikaso pa akong mga papers kaya late ako sa usapan namin. She texted me to meet her sa Red Ribbon. Eventually nagkita naman kami and I realized na a lot of things changed since we last saw each other. Mas gumanda siya ngayon and mas kikay.. bago ang haircut tas nakashades and make up ang lola nyo. hehhe. We had a great time together. We visited Duolos somewhere in Manila (sa pier 13) which is one of the oldest ship in the world, built in 1914, just two years younger than the erstwhile Titanic Ship. The ship is also regarded as the only ship in the world with the largest floating bookshop totaling over one million titles from over 50 authors….The crew was great! They seem to be friendly and approachable pero we never had a chance to interview or talk to them kasi they were all busy arranging the books. What I like most about the ship is that meron din silang mga collection ng Hillsong albums which I am planning to buy this Saturday. The price is based on units, 100 units = 100 pesos. Medyo may kamahalan nga ang mga books and cds dun pero at least nakacontribute ka sa charity di ba?! It’s a great experience talaga.

Karen and I talked about a lot of things and we talked about ‘yong dalawang team mates ko before who resigned to focus on their career sa pag-aartista. I am super happy and proud of them. My team mate named Loraine Marie De Guzman joined Bb. Pilipinas 2009 and naging “Girlfriend of the Month” din siya sa FHM. Her boyfriend naman and my team mate din named Ejen Vicente has three commercials (as far as I know). Sa Nestea or Nestle, Voice and Coke. If you want to view the clips, just click this:

Bb. Pilipinas-Raine De Guzman

Bb. Pilipinas

Bb.Pilipinas2

Voice-Ejen

Note: Raine is candidate # 18 tas si Ejen naman is the guy at left side ng bida. Nagheheadset sya with a sling bag..

Me and Karen and the rest of the team are so proud na na-meet namin sila. And I hope that they will be successful in the future. Sana naman sumali sila sa PBB or PDA because they both know how to sing, they’re good looking din and they have the right attitude to make it big in the biz industry.

KOLLABORATION 9

Oh my God! I am crazy ’bout Kina Grannis’. She and her friend, David Choi made their own cover of the song, “Forever” by Chris Brown and I love it so much! I think that it is better than the original version. I found David Choi’s profile on Facebook and I am so happy that he accepted my friend invitation. I am such a big fan of him and Kina and the rest of the Kollaboration 9 group.

If you want to listen to the song, just go to my profile. For the video, you can find it at the bottom of the page. Enjoy!